No more

Steps one by one
In the distance you fade
Promises to be
More than you saw me to be
Survive day after day no relevence is time
I will stand you will see
Better now than you ever thought i could be
Aged by time delivered by pain
I am more than you thought i could ever be
Not once or thrice i am strong

Birth of a poem

Blankly i see into the page as i write
Memories feeling life
Slowly my mind takes flight
With blood and heart
Stained with life
Regret tip toe’s in
Grief to follow
As black ink turns red
Laughter and love join in
Tornadoes of emotion
Fill my head
Focused are my eyes
Beneath my pen
My heart dripping red


I should feel  loss
There should be pain
Nothing is haunting
Madness it would seem
feel something
There is no pain
Anger is lost
Nothing to gain
Loss is not felt
It was never there

Tree of beauty

Petal so delicate grown from strength
Pure is the wind that traces each limb
Sheltered within craddled leaves
Time holds its end
Cold claims its beauty limb by limb
Beauty graces the ground
Delicate hands soon surrond
Withering with beauty
Intoxicating is the smell
Await once more
Delicate petal adorned


Tonight for a moment
You saw me
In the moment
I forgot to hide
In the moment
You smiled
Words barely spoken
Such meaning in the silence
Whisper to me
Come close to me
What was seen


Happiness was never a treasure

Never was it buried in the end of fairy tales

While we searched

It watched and waited giving hints along the way

We ignored misused happiness

Thought it to be an illusion of grandeur

Laughed, scoffed at its odd feel

Busy in life to pursue

We already hold


True You



In the shadows of the sun i see now why we never begun

through every burdened breath with every step

I never knew the true you

As time passed we played a game caught in a trance

Time passed without a chance

Apart we start to end the same

imagination outgrew what was really true

their was only two who never knew the truth

To say a tear has passed my eye would be a lie

confusion my only witness

moments of regret of time spent is not true

but I never knew you

yet a loss is felt and uncertainty dealt

with honest words all that is known

I miss you ?????

One more

The night air was crisp the world was silent as she contemplated over days past. One more drink just more will take the edge off maybe make things look brighter somehow. So she poured another glass turned her favorite movie on snuggled up in her soft blanket tipsy from the drink before. The phone rang she knew who it was and had sworn to never answer that call again. The night was lonely and she was tipsy as she thought ill answer just one more. The voice was familiar so many nights she had heard the roughness of it. What are you doing I want to come over she thought about the past few days of all that had gone so wrong and in that moment she had sealed her fate one more time. Yes come over, she brushed her hair put her favorite jeans on the ones she thought made her look the best. Rummaged through her drawers found the top she was looking for perfectly cut to fit her best she went back to the kitchen poured another drink and waited for him. She thought for a moment this is a mistake but brushed it off as she gulped down a stiff drink.

The doorbell didn’t ring he knew her well he came in as she sat the glass down he smiled at her she smiled back. He knew the affect he had on her. He walked to her his hand Brushed her cheek he took her in the kitchen ripping her jeans pulling the buttons from her shirt.

As he ripped her clothes from her body she thought what have I done. The smell of vodka from his breath she knew to well

he thrust her on the floor and took her with violence as he thrust into her he thought I wont you to feel my pain all of it the sounds of her screams he knew were pain and it pleasured him
As he finished he couldn’t fight the urge he wanted her to feel more to fear him.

All she could think through the pain is what have I done.

He picked her up sat her on the counter kissed her one last time as she fought to get away he grabbed the kitchen knife and thrust. It into her as her eyes swelled with pain and her naked body crumpled he realized what he had done and so had she.